So I have some requests for God , a sort of prayer I guess,
Being reborn and being a kid all over might be nice - but isn't that reincarnation? Can we have that in heaven, I think that would be great! Can I always be the mother of the kids I have now? But they need to grow up and have kids - they don't want to be kids forever. So I guess my heaven would have reincarnation. As a bonus, it would keep evolution rolling I suppose. Can I have different parents next time though? I love them but I want a mother who loves me like I love my daughter. Can you do that?
I want to always be the wife of my husband. I want to always find him and fall in love all over again. That would be awesome! Now, I could roll with that idea of heaven. Maybe we could build spaceships and keep peace in the universe according to the laws of The Power of Love (God as I know Him)? That would be super fun, my sons would love it!!!
Hmm, what else? No-one starves, K? Everyone has clean water, electricity, a home, freedom, the right to love whom they fall in love with and children can play more and sit at desks less? Maybe we can figure out how to really learn though play? You know what I've found though, when you start living your dreams your work is super fun!!!
Can I always find my friends? Can I not be with people who've hurt me? That would be good. But you know what? I'd still want to be the last one in the door, heaven should really be for everyone, they all need your Grace, right? Can you always keep your hand on me like you do now? I need You to be there. I don't want to loose you again, it was hard enough to find you this time.
I don't want money in heaven, it's just a one way road to guarantee greed and corruption. Can the scientists work for truth instead of vested interest groups? I think we could cure all diseases once people's bonds were broken from this debt-slavery system. You could inspire them, right? Just like you inspire me!
Also, I want the people who prey on children and abuse them locked up for life, how can we have heaven when child abuse or rape is a lesser crime than following your conscience to leak documents proving government corruption? I want the right to euthanasia for terminal conditions and elderly people, some couples would choose to go together.
My heaven has contraception, sex is super fun and I don't want twelve kids and boobs down to my knees. Sorry, that's too much laundry and cooking, when would I have time to think let alone parent them all well? My heaven has a male contraceptive too, men should have the ability to choose how many kids they have. Every kid should be a mutual consenting choice, they deserve to be loved even before conception, loved just as an idea.
My heaven has gay couples and gay adoptions as well as straight, love is love. I don't want a bigoted heaven. In this heaven adults would work for discovering truth rather than cat-fighting about who was right. Is the world just a stage for inflated egotists?
I don't want people genetically engineering people either, it isn't right, they'll start thinking of natural folks as if they were cows or pigs. I don't care how IQ is measured, people are people. I don't even want the farm animals to be abused and eaten, I hate it. We can't have abortion either unless necessary to save the mother - but not because it's illegal, but because we support women and children so well that it would be an illogical choice. Can we just lock vicious rapists up for life? Keep them well, feed them, but not let the buggers out? I think women and girls should feel safe.
God, I love you with all my heart and soul but If you can't do that at all I'd rather you just hit delete, recycle me, whatever. I really mean it. I am anchored here by my love for everyone but at the same time it is hell. You'd be doing me a favour. I've had enough pain for several lifetimes and I can't do it all over again certainly not without my soulmate, knowing he'll be there, that he'll find me. Otherwise forever would scare me more than oblivion, for real. If all you can do is keep me with those I love, that's Okay, I'll deal with it.
Just to give you fair warning though God, if I ever invent a time machine, now or in the future I'm going back to take Jesus off that fucking cross. No-one needs to know, I can use some kind of projector to make it look real. Those bastards don't even know what TV is, so it won't be a paradox. I just don't want him crucified. Sorry. If that wrecks your plans it's best you know my intentions.
I hope my teacher likes it, it didn't take long at all but I can't think of anything else to write. I don't want servants or peeled grapes, I don't want to be a queen or powerful. I don't want the illusion of love or happiness like the adverts push with a diamond mined by slaves. I want the real deal or no cigar, no dice, I won't play. It isn't a tantrum, it's just that I've come to learn that one lifetime with true Love would be worth any number of eternities without it. I'm sorry, I can't be any other way. That said, I'd do it all over a million times for my kids, I'd move heaven and earth for them (and my guy) if I could. That's love though, right? :)